Bittersweet

Life's bittersweetness is like this glass of 4-layer tea, one's incomplete without the other, ccomplementing one another.  To enjoy my rainbow, I need to experience the rain, and even perhaps go through a storm like the stirring of the drink. It will be a sweet ending nevertheless, once I get over the bitterness. And I will be okay.

Just came back from the first step of settling the big task I mentioned about yesterday - spent about half an hour crying my heart out and chatting with bestie, took a nice long shower, and here I am. I feel better now. I know the road ahead may not be all smooth and straight, but I am prepared - anywhere worth going is worth the journey. And I know I am heading to the right direction. A leap over the hurdle, a skip to escape the mud, a climb up the tough slope... soon I will be there, as long as I don't give up and I won't.

To cheer myself up, went for a hair cut this morning.

Before - my last haircut was half a year ago

After - with shorter bangs and more layered sides & back. Sorry if I scared you with those dark eyed circles, didn't sleep too well last night.

The stylist suggested that I do a setting perm - but I guess I will only do that later. May need some more hair-venly therapy later, if the going gets tough or otherwise to celebrate. Hmmm...maybe I'd just go with the idea to give myself a birthday present 3 months down the road :)

Will be back soon to share about my recent trip, stay tuned!

Celebrating ME Day

Over the long weekend - I decided to take a day off from church & spent a good day at discovering a new place for coffee & browsing through an art market. Wonderful day, well spent.

First stop - Typica Cafe 豆原 @Shaw Parade, my first time here. It's a quaint little place - with just 4 tables and two long benches.

At the table I sat at - a vase with roses... 

The menu - they are famed for the siphon coffee & ice drip coffee. I finally decided to try something different - Ice Coffee with Chocolate Milk & Mint and Black Sesame Cheese Cake. Nice! :)

Cute!

My table looks like a school desk.

After my brunch - I went to the Kaka Creative Art Market, which is held on every first Sunday (that's why gotta skip church, ooppss!). They have a different theme every month - February is the month of  L❤VE.

Love this stall which had all these cute piggies, hedgehogs and sheep made with clay.

Market on ground floor, view from 2nd floor.

Lots of pretty & creative handmade stuffs here, which of course we can shop online for, but nothing beats seeing & touching the goods for real. Wonderful, wonderful. Wish I could do this more often.

After-thought: I wish I could be like some of these vendors. Made me think - what am I good at? So good at, that I just wanna share with people... and hopefully make some money out of it. I wish... 

happy birthday to me!

给亲爱的自己： 生日快乐 ！

昨晚的我好迟训。。。为了等他的一通电话。 之前佢讲唔会打俾我，因为怕太夜，叫我先训。但係我话我会等。 结果放工到家都已经9点多。。。睇下电视，发下白日梦，唔惊唔觉就已经凌晨1点多。依然无乜睡意，但係觉得再唔训，怕今日训唔醒。

刚爬上床，电话就响起。係佢！！！ 虽然係短短的几分钟，心里却很甜。 :)

已经半年无与佢见面，心里那份牵挂很难形容。 短短的一通电话足以让我带笑入睡。仿佛好似佢就係我身边，抱住一样。 唔知何时何日可以让呢果情景变为现实。

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my birthday this year is much more happier than the last. even though last year - i celebrated it with a vacation, whilst i m slogging like a dog now, my heart is so much lighter. and because of that i am happy.

happiness could be so temporal, but true joy always spring from within. we could be enjoying ourselves with multitudes around us, but whether the feeling or the emotions stay - that's another matter.

just a phone call from a special someone could make me smile as i go to sleep. the few minutes brought hours, possibly days of warmth in the heart. :) hmmmm... i seem to be still on a 'high' that i couldnt really describe the special effect that phone call had on me.

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just side track a little - as i was getting out of the house this morning to go to work, someone left two teddy bears at my door. sweet? the gesture - yes, but the giver isnt really someone on my good list. i know i sound ungrateful. actually the teddies were from my ex. it was a promise made by him, years ago - that to every country he flies to, he will bring back a teddy for me. when i saw the teddies, i felt neither happy nor sad. i just shrugged it off and rushed off to work. in my heart, i just felt that if he was one who had kept his promises back then, we could have still be together to this day. so what's the point of keeping the promises now?

good thing was that it didnt dampen my moods or anything. in fact, i feel i couldnt care less. well, at least he didnt go crazy and throw poisonous snakes at my door, right?

well... i m glad to say that i have returned the teddies to him. i just put them back at his door. he's actually staying next door ... i m just glad that i did that.

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so...note to self:

happy birthday. have a blast, live a great life - coz you deserve one. do not let unworthy things or people distract you of your goals and dreams. remember, being happy is a choice. do what you need to do. live life the best you can.

(please dont say i m a self-obsessed 自恋狂 - i believe we need to be able to accept and love ourselves, before we can expect others to accept and love us)

yummy evening that ended with rashes scare

Raspberry Chocolate Latte

红烧麵

last evening was great, finally get to meet up with a super good friend... havent seen her for at least half a year. food was nothing to shout about, the raspberry choc latte kept me awake...no, it made me crave for more :)

as we were sitting there, chatting and catching up... she noticed that there are rashes on my hands. it's kinda itchy, something like 风模. i didn't know what caused the rashes, hope it's not the drink coz i do plan to go and get another one to satisfy my craving. probably it's the food. coz another friend who was there with us commented that she sometimes get allergic reactions, after taking vegetarian food. well, i m not sure, coz this is not the first time i ate vegetarian food, and i have been to this place before, albeit quite a few years back.

after saying our bye byes, i decided to pop by the panel clinic on the way home. i dont want the rashes to flare up the next day. i had one bad experience with rashes, that forced me to take MC and stay home for 3 days, as the rashes will resurface when i m in air-conditioned and super cool room like the office. and it's not just the arms and legs, or the body, it even decided to pay a visit to my face. i dont want to risk looking like a monkey again, lol.

the doc gave me a jab, a bottle of calamine lotion with antibiotics and some anti-itch tablets... and i went home happily, still thinking abt the yummy raspberry choc latte. :)

thank goodness, my skin is clear now (touch wood!) ...

are u drinking bitter coffee?

sometimes, life's like having a cup of coffee. u sit by the window, lift the cup up and take a fresh sip only to realise someone forgot to put in the sugar.

too lazy to go for it, u somehow struggle through that sugarless cuppa...till u discover undissolved sugar crystals at the bottom.

that's how life is ... we do not make an effort to value what is with and around us.

so look around, and maybe the sweetness u are looking for is closer than u think. :)