Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Sad coz... I didn't get to drink one of my fave soup - lotus root with peanuts. More sad coz... I indirectly made my mum felt guilty.

After work today, I had to fetch mum to her doctor's place in Taman Desa. As I didn't have time to have dinner, she packed dinner for me from home. Almost reaching the destination, I commented that the food smells great; I was really hungry at that time. Then only she realised she had spilled the soup; no wonder it smells so good.

She kept saying that because she's old, therefore she's useless, can't even do a simple task right, etc. She felt so guilty that it made me feel even worse. I did not voice out my disapppointment (my fave soup!), just tried to cheer her up.

I know lately many things had been causing her anxiety, my siblings' health, my nephew's health...even though, she had not been feeling well herself. 养儿一百,长优九十九。


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

How do I...

...know that I have really loved someone sincerely & deeply?

A year ago, when I was asked whether I would take him back, I'd surely & without doubt said "No." Today, I still hold the same answer... difference is I hesistated for a second or two. I know I have truly loved him...despite all.

But that was the past.

I had moved on. In the search of someone who could make me love with all my heart & soul again, and loves me the same.

You'll never live until you have loved with all your heart and soul.