Thursday, December 27, 2007

bye, 2007


2007 is bidding us farewell, 2008 is standing by at the side, ready to go through with us 366 days of our precious life.
things changed. people changed. for better or worse - nobody can tell, only time will reveal.
i have changed. my life has changed. my thinking has changed.
i can only hope 2008 will be better - i definitely foresee it's not gonna be a smooth sailing year ahead, but i m sure i will come out triumphant :) so, wish me the best & i wish u the same, too.

Monday, November 19, 2007

要先疼爱自己,才人见人爱

大病了一场。。。现在总算好多了。当发烧不退,又呕吐,又冷得发抖,又冒冷汗,医生还以为我中了dengue,结果就抽血来检验。

幸好,检验结果是negative,要不然我现在不会坐得那么舒服打这篇部落格。 虽然身体好多了,但是还是蛮累的。真的要学会好好照顾自己了,今时不同往日。。。一个人的生活什么事情都只能靠自己。自己不对自己好的话,就对不起自己。不可以依赖别人。人家有自己的生活,哪有那么多时间和精力来给我?都是那句话 - 要先疼爱自己,才人见人爱。 哈哈!

Monday, November 5, 2007

thought for the day

When it seems you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.






-BINGO!- but how long can/should one hang on? & how strong can the knot be? ... & if my hands are tired, my fingers are growing numb - how not to let go????

Sunday, November 4, 2007

self-worth

Note to self -
Self-worth comes from within, comes from who i truly am inside, comes from my values... & not from with whom i befriend, not from what other people say/perceive me to be, not from profiles that i create here or elsewhere, not from how much is in my bank account (even if it means it's in a net debt position)...


my worth comes from myself. whether u see it or not. whether u appreciate it or not. i resolve to take better care of myself. resolve to think of myself & my own well-being first. resolve not to let others dictate my life, my destiny. be strong, girl, be strong.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

thanks!

i m grateful and appreciate my family & friends, who stood by me; encouraging me in their own ways. most of them do not know what i have been through or am going through, but they will just sincerely extend their hands of genuine friendship, their shoulders are ready for me to cry on.

life's tough - but because of them, my will to persevere & to hang on becomes stronger.

因为你地,生命变得更有意义!

Friday, October 26, 2007

伤我最深的人莫过于你

敌人刺我、痛我,我不难过;可是,最亲密的爱人刺我、痛我,真是教人难以忍受啊!然而,哪有每个爱情都是至死不渝的?最亲密的爱人,也会有背叛的时候呀!

婚姻有喜,但也有困扰!通常,困扰、悲伤的婚姻,比幸福、美满的婚姻来得多;因为要遇见好的伴侣很不容易,而且,人是会变的,感情若是要变,也常是轻而易举的事。

现代女性必须是「坚强的、有韧性的」。如果我们一直陷在惶恐不安、提心吊胆的情愫之中,真的,我们是不会有好日子过的。

所以,如果要我一直拚命顾守一个没有感情、甚至破碎的家,而终生一无所成,我不要!我要把感情放淡、看淡,勇敢地走出自己、做出自己的成绩,我不要一直被感情所困扰、束缚。

真的,人是很渺小、很微不足道的;可是,我们这个微小的人,若遇到情感不顺、不幸福,整个人真的是很痛苦的啊!

不过,在雨过天青时,或许我们可以转个念头--有些事,绝不是我所能控制的,「一直担心」亦于事无补,所以,让我们去选择、去做一些更有意义的事吧,要来的,自然会来,但若上天怜悯我们,或许有些事,不会来。

因此,大声告诉自己--我要勇敢,我一定可以挺得住,没有事可以难得了我,我或许长得不很漂亮,但,我一定要活得很漂亮,才能走出叔叔的背后,做一个人前的自己,无愧地对自己喜爱的大海大声呼叫﹕无悔今生!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

*私はほしいと思うものがもはや知ってはいけない*

老实说,心情真的有点忧郁,有点blue,有点烦。。。又有谁能了解和体会。

别人说他们了解。。。其实他们并不懂。

没有人能感受得到我所经历的。。。也不会有人能明白。

真的很辛苦。。。很挣扎。

那么重的负担 ~ 我真的背得起吗? 那么弯的路 ~ 我真的找到出口吗? 我还需要忍耐多久? 我还有能力撑多久? 。。。很想哭,很想有人对我说他会替我承受一切。。。

我累了,真的很累。我在朋友和家人面前都假装一切顺利。 不想他们担心。 我几时可以真正的作回我自己呢?

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

男人的爱一辈子只会付出一次

以下这篇文章是朋友转发给我的。。。
关于 男人的爱是否一辈子只付出一次,我 不能确定;可是关于女人的爱,也不是所有女人都像文中所说的一样肤浅。女人的爱也有很深刻的,也有一辈子的。

男人一生也就那一次是最真的,男人的爱一生只有一次,每一个男人都是这样,他 可以对每个女人说"我爱你",但他 一辈子只会爱上一个女人,只有一个 。女人需要的是一个关怀她,爱她, 可以让她依靠,保护她一辈子的人,当她遇到一个男人时,爱的死去活来,山盟海誓。

然后因为种种原因的分 开,她不会再记得他,或者说不会记 得那么深刻。因为当她遇到一个更好 的男人时,她会拿两个人来比较,她会觉得遇到更好的是她的幸运。但男 人不是这样,当他爱上一个女人,真 真正正的爱,他不会再爱上任何一个 人。

当这段感情失败后,他 会把这段记忆放在心里,把这个女人 放在心底。原来一个男人可以把很多女人放在心里,但一辈子只有一个女人可以在他心底。无论他以后会再相处再多的女人,他都会清楚的知道,自己最爱 的是谁。无论以后他遇到的女人多么 优秀,他也不会改变。

因为 他心底的女人是他的支柱,他不会用她和任何一个人相比,他认为这种比较是愚蠢的,

他一辈子只会爱她一个。放在心底的女人,永远的伤痕。男人都是爱 面子的,

也许他平时会活的很潇洒,但在一个人孤独的时候,他 会放下所有的尊严,放声痛哭,思念唯一的她。

男人的爱一辈子只会付出一次。

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

i think i do trust people too easily...

没有防备人的心。对人太诚恳,过于真诚。。。到头来受伤也是我自己。

天秤座:乱交友却又识人不清。天秤座很喜欢交朋友,他们的朋友中三教九流都有,真心的朋友也有,想要来分一杯羹或来骗钱的朋友也有,天秤座往往识人不清,误把小人当朋友,常常有背后被自己朋友捅一刀的情形发生。

Monday, October 8, 2007

我只是有个小小的愿望

我只是有个小小的愿望
满怀希望的四处流浪
想流浪却又忍不住彷徨
想要快乐却又走不出悲伤
想要拥有吻同时带着理想
想遗忘却又忍不住回想
想要掩饰抚不平心的创伤

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

the strength of a man

(Author Unknown)

The strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders.
----It's seen in the width of his arms that circle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice.
----It's in the gentle words he whispers.

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has.
----It's how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work.
----It's in how respected he is at home.

The strength of a man isn't in how hard he hits.
----It's in how tender he touches.

The strength of a man isn't in the hair on his chest.
----It's in his heart...that lies within his chest.

The strength of a man isn't how many women he`s loved.
----It's in how he can be true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift.
----It's in the burdens he can carry.

Friday, September 21, 2007

人善天不欺简单一个道理

只要食得落睡得好天天里笑得开口


便已足够

Monday, September 17, 2007

to the left, to the right

today's mood swings... dunno y suddenly feel so down?

Sunday, September 16, 2007

my thoughts today

每一个人的恋爱方式都各有不同。。。表达方式不一样。

无论是示爱,关怀,开心,生气。。。全都不同。

需要多久去了解一个人呢? 答案应该是一辈子罢。。。 那么我们有没有一辈子的时间?

Monday, September 10, 2007

true courage

有人说勇敢不在于逗留,抓紧不放。。。有时候,勇敢是在于放手。



身边有一双朋友。。。最近也不懂什么理由却分手了。

男的对我说有人嫁祸给他。。。也有人说女对他不忠。我亲眼看见的又好像另一回事。。。 真搞不懂他们俩。
是女方提出的。 她也不肯解释。男的却坚持自己没有错。 到底是什么一回事?

Thursday, September 6, 2007

sept 6 (4 years ago)

it was a joyous occassion, a blissful moment, a celebration of love, a new star shining...
but that's history.

someday... u will cry for me, like i cried for u.
someday... u will miss me, like i missed u.
someday... u will need me, like i needed u.
someday... u will love me, but i wont love u.


so, you may go on with all your lies - just get out of my life now & be gone forever. frankly, my dear, i dun give a damn. (one day u gonna wake up, realizing how much u care about me ... & when that day comes, i will be waking up with the guy who already knew)

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

randomly random

Linda很温柔,但就是丑了点。
Anya很能干,但就是脾气差了点。
小丽很漂亮,但就是心底怀了点。
Dana很可爱,但就是私生活乱了点。
有一天,我终于找到了一个拥有以上优点却没有以上缺点的女人。
她温柔,能干,漂亮,可爱。。。但就是晚了点!


人生就是一连串的考验。
当你上学时,老师考验你的学志。
当你工作时,老板考验你的业绩。
当你交朋友时,朋友考验你的友情。
当你恋爱时,女友考验你的诚意。
当你结婚后,老婆考验你的自尊。
当你有baby后,小孩考验你的耐力。
当你退休后,你以为人生所有的考验都已经结束了。
这时你才发现,所有的事情都在考验你的记忆。

Monday, August 27, 2007

婚前婚后的现实世界!


1。女人婚后,希望有[安定]的生活;男人婚后,希望有[安静]的生活!
2。以前,[王子与公主]的故事是童话;现在,[老夫与老妻]的故事是神话!
3。别人的另一伴,像[艺术品];而自己的另一伴,则像[日用品]!
4。婚前的男女,[形影不离]常相左右;婚后的男女,[意见不合]常相左右!

5。还是情人时,往往[客气]多;结为夫妻后,变成[火气]多了!
6。爱情的开始,是希望给[对方]一个未来;爱情的结束,是希望给[自己]一个未来!
7。富人结婚,最爱[门当户对];穷人结婚时,最怕[门当户对]!
8。婚前, 男人经常找女人[讨论];婚后,男人只告诉女人[结论]!
9。婚后的男人,只图[耳根清净];婚后的女人,只图[不见为净]!
10。婚前,男人把时间花在女人身上;婚后,女人把时间花在男人身上!
11。谈恋爱,最好是[有心人];谈结婚,最好是[有钱人]!
12。完全相反的个性,结婚时叫[互补];完全相反的个性,离婚时叫[个性不合]!
13。恋爱时的花费,证明爱情是[真实];结婚后的开支,证明婚姻是[无价]!
14。热恋时,再夸张的谎言都能听成是情话;结婚后,再认真的情话只会当成是废话。
15。在爱情中,有人[视死如归];在婚姻中,有人[视归如死]!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

那些纯真

有关以后的那些纯真过去了,所以我们不谈论以后。

i think as time goes by, as we age... our school of thoughts will also change. that's growth. that's maturity.

what meant the whole world to us previously may now seem just like dusts in the air, gone with just a breath of the wind.

our priorities in life reshuffle. we look at things differently. our tolerance level moves upwards.
things are not what used to be. things that seem to be of ultra importance may seem naive now.

nevertheless, i still hope the purity of our hearts & minds still remain. the purity of our feelings. the purity of our thoughts. the innoncence of a child, the gracefulness of an aged person.

那些纯真过去了。我们再也不说「说好一辈子都要在一起喔」的那种话。

那些纯真过去了。我们再也不说「我会永远爱你,永远都要陪在你身边」的那种话。

那些纯真过去了。我们再也不说「以后我一定要嫁给你」或是「我一定要娶你当老婆」的那种话。

那些纯真过去了。所以,所以我们再也不说,再也不说那些话。

然后我们面对现实,然后我们不随便承诺,因为我们知道未来会发生什么事情,没有人知道,所以我们再也不说那些话。

那些纯真过去了。我们再也不说「明天如果我死掉你会怎么样」然后期待对方会说些什么的笨话。

那些纯真过去了。但是我只希望我们有相同的频率;呼吸是一样的频率;思考是一样的频率。

Sunday, August 19, 2007

trust

how do u know u can really trust someone enough to give him/her your heart? can it be measured & quantified? or is it just a gamble, a risk one has gotta take???

Thursday, August 16, 2007

给不起的爱

我始终静不下来
你问我的问题一直在我脑海徘徊
你说你想 找个人好好爱
我真的不知道能否给你依赖
我其实想给你全部我的爱
可现在我不知道我的未来

BABY 所以只能继续沉默看你发呆
希望你明白我不值得你去等待

给不起的爱 我选择为你而离开
短暂的痛如果能够换来你幸福快乐的未来

给不起的爱 真不是我情愿放开
只是不想看你以后在我痛苦中忍耐

我始终静不下来 这些天没你在我感觉有一点点怪
我的一切 都随你而离开
空空的脑袋在笑自己太坦白
希望你明白我不值得你去等待

谁说最简单的就是爱
只能用纯洁和真心就能造出来
我真明白 我是好还是坏
让现在的我们一直处在痛苦的悬崖
我依赖你的爱,你依赖我的关怀
此刻的我们就象刺猬带刺的爱
只能远远看着彼此思念对方
只怕对方受到伤害

我想真的要慢慢开始醒来,好无奈

我需要一个拥抱

我需要一个拥抱 因为我觉得很糟
我需要一个拥抱 今天我心情不好
我需要一个拥抱 因为我觉得很糟
我需要一个拥抱
so give me a hug right now
so give me a hug right now
你不需要变得如此骄傲
我只想要个单纯的拥抱
我不是想跟你啦啦啦你想到哪里去了
我需要一个拥抱 我不是寂寞的猫
我需要一个拥抱 只要三秒钟就好
我需要一个拥抱 就算是同情也好
我需要一个拥抱

Monday, August 13, 2007

quote of the day

没有人值得你为他哭,
值得你为他哭的人不会让你哭

tummy pain pain & head wing wing

not sure what's wrong - tummy pain pain & head wing wing. i did take breakfast - but still head wing wing. what's wrong? i slept good - as always - slept like a piglet. ate good too. probably lack of TLC... hmm.

Sunday, August 5, 2007

手牵手


Monday, July 30, 2007

人生不是要來追悔的,而是要珍惜

男人與女人,從來都是兩極,一陰一陽。
相反,卻又互相吸引,不能缺少,相互補足。


男女之間總是有一層又一層的矛盾與繾綣。世間上一段又一段不一樣的男女關係中,總是充滿著各式各樣的矛盾與噓唏。縱使甜蜜如絲,人與人之間的相處總有一點點的不合,大大小小、瑣瑣碎碎。小吵宜情,有助增進感情,可積著了怨言卻是大大不好,一點一滴的易成了問題。

男人與生俱來並不太愛說話,女人反而是喋喋不休,嘴皮子一天到晚停不下來。這是天生的特質與本錢,要好好利用才是,否則優點就反而成了缺點,會有反效果。這男女的天性套到愛情上可真是很應景,男人多以行動表愛意,女人愛聽甜言蜜語。

不管男與女,在感情路上總會碰過愛,卻又矛盾重重 、誤會重重的時候。相愛,各自的在對方背後做著自以為愛對方的事,把自己的喜惡埋得好好的。只把對方的喜惡為喜惡,想著怎樣做才讓對方最開心,怎做才是最愛最保護對方。

其實不知道原來這樣的愛,有時候卻為雙方製造了一道又一道的屏障。雖說愛最實際該以行動來表示,但人天生了一把口,就有它的用處。愛語要說、說愛道情,行動示愛、保護關懷,要展現就不要吝嗇。

不知道什麼時候,男男女女總會衍生出一套又一套匪夷所思的戀愛論調。男人總愛說,愛不是說的而是要表現出來,用行動表示的。男女都總會為對方做著自以為最好、最愛對方的事。但很多時候,愛更是要說,正正因為愛,才更要說。不要跟我說什麼「你愛就會明白了解體會到」這些狗屁話。(嗯,是粗俗了一點,不過受怨太深,有點燥)

你不說,我不會知道,我不是你,我不會知道你為什麼會做、怎想。人是最難了解的動物,即使親如父母細看教育了半世的子女也不一定會全瞭然。更何況是愛你不及父母切身、對待你不如父母長久的愛侶?縱使我能了解大部份你行動背後的意思,但總有一些我會不了解、想錯。你不解說,我不能更了解你,這有礙我完全明白你這"不說話的愛"是如何。

當你從不跟我說出來,你從不讓我有有雙向溝通,你要我怎去了解你?當我只能日覆日、年覆年,憑我多次的撞板、憶萬次的觀察去自我摸索。請你不要大大聲的跟我說我不了解你,因為你最沒資格說這樣的話。因你從沒開過口讓我了解過,你不提供資料,只靠我去搜索,能找到幾多有用的資訊?又要經過多少次引證才能知道資料的真偽?我又要花多少心神進去?但其實只要你開口,我卻能輕易的把這些功夫都做好。

好好的把話說開,能避免很多不必要的誤會。不要為了什麼面子,這能比你愛的他/她重要嗎?有時候愛情就是在這些可不存在的摩擦中慢慢消耗掉。怨言從此而來,埋怨吵架又埋怨,循環不息,值得嗎?其實不需這樣。不要在不能挽回時才來後悔,人生不是要來追悔的,而是要珍惜。

Mr Right?


大家於愛情路上尋尋覓覓,追逐Mr. Right / Ms Right的踪影。
因為相信上天早已注定命中配對的伴侣。只是暫時未找到。
當出現已有感情穩定的伴侶,卻又對另一位情不自禁的時候,會不禁懷疑,眼前這位是否是『對先生』。
相處時間久了,彼此太熟悉了,很容易會覺得伴侶不再令自己心動。於是在推力和引力下,便會有不要耽誤彼此青春,各自再去尋找命定的Mr. Right,才是正確的想法。
大家都懷著期望,在愛情路遊遊蕩蕩,兜兜轉轉,耗上了青春,投資了感情,感慨著『你愛的不愛你,愛你的你又不愛他』。
然後千帆過盡皆不是,始終仍然無法找到自己的Mr. Right。
後來,某一天,你會訝異地發現,怎麼朋友竟會開始會漸漸接受,以前從不會考慮接受的人。
他們甚至沒有曾經期盼男友應有的外貎/身型/權勢/財富/風趣/幽默感...只不過專一踏實一些,還有一顆真心罷了。 你或會認為,也許是因為朋友要求降低了。
然而,那又會不會是一種領悟呢? 說不定,上天要我們找的,並不是Mr. Right,而是要大家借助愛情的經歷,認識/了解/明白真正的自己。
到真正認清自己的需要後,才會找到和懂得珍惜自己的Mr. Right吧? 即使,漫長歲月無法找到什麼,最少仍然有過快樂,有隨著年紀和歷練而得到的智慧。

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

不會不能沒有了誰

(2007-07-24)
東方日報專訊: 一個人想與你親近,你多少也知道原因。但當一個人要離開你的時候,你可能永遠不會知道他心底最真實的想法。


無論在感情上、友情上或在工作上,決定離開,很多時都是一時意氣的決定。可是,離開之後,也不見得有很多人會對自己的決定感到極度的後悔。

問題不在於離開的決定是對是錯,而是,分離本來就是很平常的事,不值得我們花太多氣力勉強改變。

如果有人要離開我,我很少問原因,因為首先改變不了結果,其次我不想知道得太清楚,而最重要的是,對方應該不會講真說話。

只有想和你繼續有將來的人,才會對你講真說話;而那些時候,你收到的便會收到,你收不到的便收不到,老實說話根本不會留到離別之前才作發表。

面對別離,請習慣不再感情用事。世界上不會有「沒有了誰就活不下去」的事,彼此分開了,各自仍在向前行,只是朝不同的方向,那麼,你可以在另一條行車線上祝福他。你也許害怕別離、喜歡回憶,但這只是一個人讓感性得以宣洩的缺口。

你很清楚回憶是回不過去、也帶不到將來的一些感覺,所以你才會有選擇性地記起,只因為它已與你無干。

梁芷珊‧作家

Thursday, July 19, 2007

life's fair...

未见得一切都要公平
成败也总要问究竟
亦未见得得失影响心情
难道你天生很好胜
全部靠即兴
只会不得要领
凡事要心中决定
行捷径心领崎路更要冷静
没有输怎会胜
用努力来往上调整
以后前途反覆要镇定
以后迷途不需找算命
以后沿途危难总要企定
学会张一张开一双眼睛
未见得光阴一去需要停
无用去一再望背影
人没有一生挥不去的惨情
是会好心好报应

truth vs lies




i think after having gone through what i have gone through (& still inevitably going through)
- i have come to the conclusion that being transparent & honest in a relationship is of utmost importance.
how can a person be trusted if he/she is not truthful in the 1st place? yes, i'd rather u hurt me honestly than mislead me with a lie. coz when u do that, the resulting disappointment & heartache is gonna be so many times more.
& when u disappoint me again & again & again - dont expect me to ever trust you again & dont blame me. i may be vulnerable & stupid at times, even too blind to see... but when i finally wake up from my slumber, just remember this - i am awake.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

something stolen

'stolen' this beautiful quote frm a friend's blog...

"like a flower waiting to bloom. like a lightbulb in a dark room. i'm just sitting here waiting, for the day i will soar again..."

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

12生肖保送生應做什么工?


高官子弟,十几年大公司副总以上经验,应征职位,CEO 以下免谈.

*grins*

Friday, July 6, 2007

i m a fool

dunno y these 2 days i just feel so down. sometimes, i really think that i m just a fool. i may be smart in other things, but when it comes to the birds & the bees - i think i m just a stupid fool. i think i have a tendency to fall into the same trap again & again, despite reminding myself to learn & not repeat the same mistakes.

why am i so vulnerable & naive when it comes to the matters of the heart? trusting people too easily, willingly letting people take advantage of me, ...

pathetic.

why is it that i give my heart & soul - i dun get the same in return? is that the way it's meant to be?

sigh...why i let people hurt me?

I will not make the same Mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

...suddenly feel so crushed. my heart is broken, & i dunno how long it takes to patch it back. & perhaps it's better off being alone. :(

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

bedtime prayer


Thursday, June 14, 2007

有缘千里来相会, 无缘对面不相逢。

有缘千里来相会, 无缘对面不相逢。

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

学会离开


离开了反而好
不是安慰你才这么说
你看不是有很多人
分手后快快乐乐过生活
思念深是折磨
不再忍受那无情冷漠
不要茫然无助寻解脱
越挽留就越迷惑
当沉默变得脆弱
只是不停寻找借口犯错
让誓言重复太多
是否你会承受伤心结果
remember - when u begin to miss me, u were the 1 who let me go 1st.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

quote of the day


爱一个人不一定要拥有他,拥有一个人一定要好好爱他
To love is not necessarily to have, to have is necessarily to love

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

无言 ~ 爱的两种境界

两人相处久了,渐渐出现许多沉默的片刻,是好还是坏?爱情里的无言,可能是两个人相处时最高的层次,也可能是彼此沟通时最坏的状况。



无言,是爱情的一种境界。但是,爱情里的无言,也有两种状况。它的层次可以高到很高;也可以低到很低,情形很不一样。有时候,是因为生闷气,所以不讲话。有时候,并不生气,但就是无话可说。


爱情里的两种无言,有点像质量好坏截然不同的空调。同样都是不滴水,有的是故障,有的是新发明。你总要搞出一身汗来,才会发现错在哪里。也可能会有更惨的情况是,从头到尾,都不知道问题到底出在哪里!


空调品质的最高境界,是「无声胜有声」;但是,爱情里的无言,却可能是两个人相处时最高的层次,也可能是彼此沟通时最坏的状况。

当沉默潜入你和他之间,是好、是坏,你是否能分辨?学习享受安静的片刻,或化解沈闷的危机,都是恋爱时很重要的功课。


幸福是什么?大多数人都只会羡慕别人的幸福,等到自己失去幸福以后,才知道幸福是什么。


原来,幸福并没有一定的模样。烛光前的甜言蜜语,绝对是幸福的一种表情;但寒风中的泪眼婆娑,也可能会是幸福的相貌。


幸福,没有样板。不必看到别的夫妻如胶似漆的样子,就怀疑从来不懂枕边细语的另一伴是不是真的爱你;也不要看到别人金玉满堂的家庭,就担心自己家徒四壁的公寓档不住岁月的风雨。


除了爱在当下、懂得珍惜之外,幸福的秘诀之一,不外乎就是一种坚定的自信,不管情况究竟坏到什么地步的时候,都还相信幸福不曾远离。



即使你曾经因为一时的不小心而与幸福擦肩而过,也不要太早放弃。

美梦破碎之后的人生,将在重建的过程中,重新体验幸福的真谛。只要你相信,幸福的最后结果,虽然成之在天,但幸福的开始,绝对操之在己。更何况,幸福,最可贵的部分,是在努力的过程,不是最后的标的。





给女博友的叮咛:不要羡慕别人,更不要怀疑自己,珍惜拥有,就是幸福。
给男博友的忠告:不要等到功成名就,才回来寻找幸福。现在,就开始经营幸福吧!

Monday, May 28, 2007

what have i been up to these days?

just spending lots of time with my nieces. look at their happy faces - when was the last time u smiled & laughed like that? aren't you jealous?








& oh... were also spending time with kids from church making sweets... :)
oops! disaster!!! mishaps are inevitable... the egg yoke not supposed to be in there, we just need the egg white only. alamak!!! :P

Sunday, May 27, 2007

don't give up

got this song from a friend... when I first saw the lyrics, it brought tears to my eyes. so very touching...when I hear the song - I fell in love with it. thanks, KK!

JOSH GROBAN - You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I... I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I... I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I... I will be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I... I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

一个人生活 或 两个人生活

两个自由的人因爱结合而产生的所谓"摩擦"

我一个人生活时爱做的事,二个人生活时也希望可以做。

如果相遇,你会感到相知,那么,有一种习惯叫做陪伴。如果陪伴,你会感到珍惜,那么,有一种甜蜜叫做存在。

Sunday, May 20, 2007

late tribute to mums

Belated Mother's Day wishes to all mothers, grandmothers & mothers/grandmothers to be...
my family only celebrated Mother's Day last nite coz last week my sis was not available.

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Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after you've had a baby...

Somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, normal is History.

Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by instinct...

Somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.

Somebody said being a mother is boring...

Somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.

Somebody said if you're a "good" mother, your child will "turn out good"...

Somebody thinks a child comes with directions and a guarantee.

Somebody said "good" mothers never raise their voices...

Somebody never came out the back door just in time to see her child hit a golf ball through the neighbor's kitchen window.

Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother...

Somebody never helped a fourth grader with his math

Somebody said you can't love the fifth child as much as you love the first...

Somebody doesn't have five children.

Somebody said a mother can find all the answers to her child-rearing questions in the books...

Somebody never had a child stuff beans up his nose or in his ears.

Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother is labor and delivery...

Somebody never watched her "baby" get on the bus for the first day of kindergarten or on a plane headed for military "boot camp".

Somebody said a mother can do her job with her eyes closed and one hand tied behind her back...

Somebody never organized seven giggling Brownies to sell cookies.

Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her child gets married...

Somebody doesn't know that marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings.

Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home...

Somebody never had grandchildren.

Somebody said your mother knows you love her, so you don't need to tell her...

Somebody isn't a mother.

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THANKS, MUM!!! 妈, 谢谢您!!!

你不會

你不會忘掉我,但你不會再明白我。'

你不會放下我,但你不會再捉緊我。

你不會再見到我,但你不會想像不到我。

你不會再捨棄我,但你不會再把幸福還給我。

你不會再徘徊對與錯,但你不會再知得失有幾多。

你不會再懂承諾的因果,但你不會再走出時間的封鎖。

你不會再失去我,但你不會再來珍惜我。

你不會再留下我,但你不會再走出夢來感動我。

太懂得防備

黃昏的海岸線有種最美的遺憾,那一片天;那一片地;那一點點的累積;要人懷念卻不能留戀。

我分不清解脫中有逃避,我想不通愛憐竟帶上殘忍。是我不夠聰明去理解?還是你神秘的思維一直都未被我開啟?是我太容易放棄?還是你太懂得摧毀?或是我們都太懂得去防備?因此快樂就如此輕易把我們推離。

Friday, May 11, 2007

through the eyes of love


an old, old song that suddenly came to my mind (anyone has the mp3?)




Through the Eyes of Love - Melissa Manchester
(Theme from Ice Castles)



Please, don't let this feeling end
It's everything I am
Everything I want to be
I can see what's mine now
Finding out what's true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
Now, I can take the time
I can see my life
As it comes up shining now
Reaching out to touch you
I can feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love
And now, I do believe
That even in a storm we'll find some light
Knowing you're beside me, I'm all right
Please, don't let this feeling end
It might not come again
And I want to remember
How it feels to touch you
How I feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love

down down down


when u feel as down as me... what would u do?


Thursday, May 3, 2007

lost one, gained one

was supposed to go to Penang frm 28 Apr - 30 Apr. been planning for it for quite some time, but it was cancelled just the day before the trip. sigh!
that's the loss.
the gain was an unexpected trip, planned just 2 days before the day of departure. went to kuantan for a day trip.
that's the gain.

now, i m at least 2 shades darker after coming back from the beach. (can see from the pic!)

i think life is just like that. for every loss, there's a gain. it just very well depends on whether we open our eyes wide enough to see beyond our current circumstance. often, we are blinded by the things that is right in front of us. so much so, we forgot that every cloud has its silver lining.
the trip was actually the first i had w my brother (& his wife & kids). usually my sis (& her hubby & kids) will be there. & sometimes, my mum is there too. from young, me & my brother are not particularly close. could be the age gap - 10 years difference! so i had always felt that he's a big bully.
however, recent events that happen to me has changed my insight. blood is thicker than water. tho i have always known he loves me, i didnt feel it. now, i do! :)
oh... on the tan - anyone has any suggestion for me to recover? coz i hv 1 month to do so, before going off for my next trip. :P

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

woohoo!!!


so looking forward to this Friday - coz i will be on leave & Saturday is my off-day (my precious off-day, as i only get 1 Sat off per month). the last few weeks had really been hectic for me - especially at work. causing also my freelance work productivity to decrease. it's already twice in a month that i missed my deadlines... which never happened before.


i truly need a break. & i think i deserve one. & i m glad i m getting it. woohoo! (yes, i m high, but i m not on drugs, alcohol or coffee!)
i m just gonna end with this, tho' it's not really related...
爱需要傻劲,但不能伤害别人,爱需要耐力,但不是一再的骚扰,爱有许多的能力,能使人快乐,亦能使人痛苦。

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

12星座怕什麽?

True for u?

魔羯 最怕没钱,怕出糗,怕面子没地方挂

水瓶 最怕没有心灵自由

双鱼 最怕现实压力

牡羊 最怕输给别人,怕失败,怕无聊

金牛 最怕改变,怕饿

双子 最怕落伍,怕别人有自已没有

巨蟹 最怕没安全感

狮子 最怕没面子

处女 最怕犯错,怕被批评

天秤 最怕孤单,怕没朋友 (应该係呱。。。但係偶然我好享受一个人嘅时间)

天蝎 最怕别人背叛他,怕没权威

射手 最怕失去行动自由,怕被叮咛

Friday, April 6, 2007

~ 这世界因为有了你,有了意义~


心理学家曾经发表过,关于人生在世的几个逻辑;他们说人一定会一天比一天老;有一天总会死去,而且没有任何意义。

所谓的意义,不过是人自己跟自己说的道理,不然有着思考能力的人们,怎么能要自己继续努力。

于是,人们各自寻找,能说服自己的理由,不去理会一天天老去迈向死去的事实。但是我却不这样想,如果清楚的知道人生先天的限制,知道有限的人生无法重来,只会让我更爱您,更更爱您。

他们说有轮回,毕竟没有科学根据,我不太有把握,万一下辈子,我找不到您,又能找谁赔我一个您。

谁能像您这样懂我的心,像您这样为我付出这许许多多,陪我走过风风雨雨;谁能像您这样细腻温柔,即使我不说什么,你也能懂。要谢您的太多,更要感谢上苍给我一个您。有了你我才明白,人生不像他们说的那样没有意义。

所幸是现在我碰到了您,说什么我都不愿意放弃。没有人能取代您,一点一滴。只有爱您和更更爱您,才能不辜负您。

生命的意义是爱您。

是舍不得您;是和您在一起;是想着您;是想要跟您生活在一起,想象着跟你在一起生活的甜蜜;是为了我们的未来,现在我愿意更努力。我也会是您生命中最重要的意义吗?

希望您懂,这渴爱的心。

Thursday, April 5, 2007

爱情 Love

爱情是留给懂得爱自己的人
Love is for someone who knows how to love themselves


暗恋是爱情最初的模样
Love starts with just one look

爱情的甜蜜是随时随地
Anytime, anywhere feel the sweetness of love

你用什么愿望捏出爱情的模样
Wish what you wish for, love will make it happen

爱情陪伴着勇气一起来
Courage comes with love

有过等待的爱情才美
Awaiting makes love beautiful.

相信是爱情最美的约定
The most beautiful commitment is believe.

挣扎是爱情的温度计
Love's temperature is measured by arguments.

想念催化了爱情的浓度
Thinking of you, love grows.

Monday, March 26, 2007

from my sis...

got this frm my sis this morning. how timely & encouraging!

人在成长的过程中
难免遇到挫折
懂得保护自己
也要懂得爱自己
生命的乐章
看你自己如何谱写
躲避不一定躲得过
面对不一定最难受
得到不一定能长久
失去不一定不再有
转身不一定最软弱


别急着说别无选择
别以为世上只有对与错
许多事情的答案都不只一个
你能找到理由难过
也一定找到快乐
懂得放心的人找到轻松
懂得忘记的人找到自由
懂得关怀的人找到朋友


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

爱上秤子

read this frm a website blog this morning.
男天秤座:左右逢源的烂好人!乱放电、被动、诡辩!
除非妳有绝对的自信,要不跟这种有意无意就对身旁女生乱放电的天秤座美公子谈恋爱,那可不是普通人能承受的事,因为就算他不主动把妹,妹妹也会自动黏上他,真的是一个比花蝴蝶更花蝴蝶的男生,从不知如何拒绝别人,也不知自己究竟爱谁,反正只要有人要跟他瞎耗,他一律接受,从不知如何选择,因为每一个都有她的优点,更何况,如果不幸选错了,起码还有一个备胎可供排遣寂寞,像这样风度翩翩的温柔男子,真是没人想伤害他,所以说,错就错在是妳主动爱上他的,他可没这样要求妳喔!如果妳受不了他的优柔寡断、三心两意,还有不时爱诡辩的行为,而想要离开的话,相信他也不会拦妳,因为像他这种男人,不管他再爱妳,绝不会改变他被动跟懒惰的习性,反正身边还有一堆嘛!记住,妳永远只是他森林里的一株小草而已,要走请自便吧!

didnt realise it's such a sad thing to be in love with a Libra man... wonder if it's the same in the case of a Libra woman, considering I am a Libra.

天秤座的人真的有那么可怕吗?
are we really that 'flirty'? are we really that 'unappreaciative'? i dont think so, & i hope not. at least, i m not.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

God's Letter to Women

it's International Women Day today (8 March) - i think it's time to post this. may this touch your hearts, as it had touched mine.

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them
into being.

When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his
nostrils.

But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life
into man, because your nostrils are too delicate.

I allowed a deep sleep to
come over him

Man was put to sleep so that he could not
interfere with the creativity.

I chose the bone that protects man's life.

I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you....... I modeled you.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile.

You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart.

The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to
the heart.

Support man as the rib cage supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.

You are my perfect angel.....You are my beautiful little girl.

You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.

Your eyes...don't change them.

Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer.

Your nose, so perfect in form.

Your hands so gentle to touch.

I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.

I've held your heart close to mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was
lonely.


He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me.

So everything I wanted Adam to sahre & experience with me, I fashioned in you;


my Holiness, my Strength, my Purity, my Love, my Protection and Support.
You are special because you are an extension of me.

Man represents my image,
woman my emotions.

Together, you represent the totality of God.

Love her, respect her, for she is fragile.

In hurting her, you hurt Me.

What you do to her, you do to Me.

In crushing her, you only damage your own heart; the heart of your Father, and the heart of her Father.


Woman, support man.

In humility, show him the power of emotionI have given you.

In gentle quietness, show your strength.


In love, show him that you are the rib
that protects his inner self.

Did you not know that WOMAN is special in God's eyes?

Because of Love 因為愛



1. Because there's love in the heart, it's beautiful.
因為心中有愛,所以美好。
2. Because it's meant to be in love, it's beautiful.
因為有緣相愛,所以美好。
3. Because we are willing, and chose to love, it's beautiful.
因為我們願意,並選擇繼續愛下去,所以美好。
4. Because love brings us happiness, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓我們滿心歡喜,所以美好。
5. Because love makes us treasure the precious moments we share, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓我們懂得珍惜眼前美好的時光,所以美好。
6. Because love brings us hope, & life becomes meaningful with hope, it's beautiful.
因為愛會帶來期盼,而在期盼中,生命變得不再空洞,所以美好。
7. Because love leaves us memories, it's beautiful.
因為愛會為我們帶來回憶,所以美好。
8. Because there' love in our memory, & we can love once again in our memories, it's beautiful.
因為回憶中有愛,而在回憶中,我們可以再痛快地愛一次,所以美好。
9. Because we continue to love no matter what, it's beautiful.
因為無論世情如何幻變,我們仍然相信愛,仍然願意去愛,所以美好。
10. Because love teaches us humility & understanding, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓我們變得謙卑,學會包容,所以美好。

11. Because we chose the same person to love even when there are choices around us, it's beautiful.
因為當生命中還有其他的選擇,而我們還是選擇只愛這一個人,所以美好。
12. Because in the midst of corwd, in the midst of time, love causes us to meet, it's beautiful.
因為「於千萬人之中...於千萬年之中,時間的無涯的荒野裡」,愛讓我遇上了你,所以美好。
13. Because there's the smell of love on you, it's beautiful.
因為在你的衣服裡嗅到愛的氣味,所以美好。
14. Because your coffee is full of the flavour of love, it's beautiful.
因為你的咖啡帶有濃濃的愛的味道,所以美好。
15. Because love makes you appear in my dreams, & my dreams become colourful & sweet, it's beautiful.
因為愛把你牽引到我的夢中,而這個夢是彩色的甜甜的夢,所以美好。
16. Because there are books, literature, movies, music, photography & you in my life, it's beautiful.
因為生命中有書本,有文字,有電影,有音樂,有攝影,還有你,所以美好。
17. Because you have discovered love, it's beautiful.
因為在你的凝視中發現那溫柔的愛,所以美好。
18. Because every street & corner that we have passed has our trace of love, it's beautiful.
因為每條我們走過的街道和角落,都留下了我們的愛,所以美好。
19. Because love is uncontrollable, it's beautiful.
因為愛總是不由自主,所以美好。
20.Because we still can live & love, it's beautiful.
因為仍然活著而依然相愛,所以美好。
21. Because the depth of love warms our hearts so, it's beautiful.
因為愛那麼多,那麼濃,讓我們心頭暖暖的,所以美好。
22. Because love makes everything seems alright & minute, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓一切變得好像很有所謂,但又彷彿好像什麼也沒有所謂,所以美好。
23. Because of love, we ensures our love lives on, it's beautiful.
因為愛,所以我們希望把這份愛延續下去,無論用什麼形式也好,所以美好。
24. Because we love each other, it's beautiful.
因為擇其所愛,愛其所擇,所以美好。
25. Because love makes us forget our suffering, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓我們忘記那漫長的苦,無論那苦是什麼,所以美好。
26. Because love makes life full, it's beautiful.
因為愛讓生命變得堪值回味,所以美好。
27. Because we can still love, it's beautiful.
因為還可以去愛,終究是美好的事,所以美好。
28. Because love is love, it's beautiful.
因為愛就是愛,所以美好。

Friday, March 2, 2007

遺憾

如果此刻我會死去, 我這一生會否有什麼遺憾?



如果痴痴的等某日终于可等到一生中最爱...

Thursday, March 1, 2007

其实你们不知道


其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气, 因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其实很多男孩子都不知道,女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨,也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。
你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,她根本不会来在乎你关心你,怕你做错事情。
你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她,在别人面前她都是淑女。
你要知道,假若她不喜欢你,你根本就没有本事让她哭泣,让她即使生气也不会超过1/2天。
而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你,而这一切都因为你还不够在意她, 不够懂她。
于是,你们时常争吵,你认为她脾气不好,她认为你不够迁就她。于是,你们总是冷战,你以为她不喜欢你,她以为你不在乎她。 要知道,凄美依然是美的一种,并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑,那是更加的美。
因为她喜欢你,所以她偶尔冲你发火,时常对你撒娇。
因为她喜欢你,所以她才会生你的气;而又因为喜欢你,她才不会去生气很久。
你可知道,每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的,晶莹剔透,但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。
你可知道,每个女孩子都是不设防的,你那么轻易就闯进她的心,走的时候却只留下伤害。
她从来都不知道,这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人,因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。
她会很矜持,她会很骄傲,她会很冷淡,她总是嘴里说着你走开,心里却一直叫你留下。
请你张开你的耳朵,也请你打开你的心,去听她心里真正的呼唤,而不是她嘴里的口是心非。
她会看着你转身,然后她跟著你转身,当侧身而过的时候,你看不见她的泪,滂沱在脸上心里。
如果你喜欢她,请你多陪她,如果你喜欢她,请你多宠她, 如果你喜欢她,请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她,请你去听听她内心的声音,那是呐喊──请拥抱她。

在爱情里,总是彼此伤害,彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。
可是,爱情里没有孰对孰错,爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。
你爱她,她爱你,如此就已经足够。
不要试图让彼此的伤害,让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。
你们彼此相爱,你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐,不是伤害。
不要用沉默宣战,不要互不相让,更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。
要知道,你离去的时候,你的眼睛起了雾,她的眼角泛著泪光。
越是安静战火就越传,这是冷战也是彼此的伤害──无论是怎么的复合,那些伤口曾经存在,抹不去的。
请跟她一个拥抱,用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。
她喜欢你,她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱,她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。
请记住,相爱的人不要轻易宣战,因为冷战带来的伤害,超出你的预计。
也请记住,只要你喜欢她,没有什么是你接受不了的,只要你喜欢她,就喜欢她的一切一切。
那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病,在你眼里都是撒娇。 也请记住,她喜欢你,她需要的不是你真的转身,她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。 她只是想你宠她,想你抱她。
有几对恋人会懂对方..?有几对恋人就素因为这样,才最终成为普通朋友...

Monday, February 12, 2007

离开是很容易的,留下来郄需要勇气


坚持是为了什么?不坚持又是为了什么?
坚持是痛苦的,不坚持也是痛苦的。


有人说:「离开是很容易的,留下来郄需要勇气。」但有些时候,要离开也是一样的不容易。

留下是痛苦的,一走了之也不见得就会好过。人生到头来还是在坚持与不坚持之间徘徊,游离,然后流离失所。

坚持下去,要问的已不是应不应该,值不值得的问题,而是路还要走多远,还要走到什么时候才见尽头?

坚持,是因为我们相信在黑暗隧道尽头的一端,有一道微弱的光线,一种我们道听途说,被视为是「希望」的东西在等候著我们,纵使我们知道那光线是多么的微弱,那希望是多么的渺茫。

不坚持,是因为我们知道在黎明降临之前,在我们面前仍是漫长的黑夜。长夜漫漫,你发现自己已无法再若无其事地过日子,无法再往前走。在茫茫黑夜里,你再也找不到方向,所以你选择不再坚持。
坚持,是因为我们无奈地接受了人生的不圆满,接受人生本该如是;不坚持,是因为我们相信人生可以更圆满,或是因为我们深信自己可以找到更圆满的人生。
那么,到底应该坚持还是不坚持?


我没有答案,而生命也没有答案,至少到目前为止,生命并没有答案。谁又会确切知道明天会如何?
答案不在这里,不在现在,而是在那里,在那遥远的未来,当我们几经辛苦,跌跌并并,终于走完我们的人生路后,回头一望,回头一算,方才恍然大悟,明白到底当初究竟应该坚持还是不坚持,应该留下,还是离开。
只是为什么总是要在将来?为什么总是要在以后?为什么不可以是现在?为什么不可以现在就告诉我,将来究竟会如何?

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

习惯



习惯了两个人一起吃饭
习惯了两个人一起看书
习惯了两个人一起工作
习惯了两个人一起散步
习惯了两个人一起回家
习惯了两个人一起聊天
习惯了两个人一起商量事情
习惯了两个人一起发呆
习惯了两个人一起喝咖啡
习惯了两个人一起


当开始一个人很多快乐都不再了... 是真的嗎? 不如換一個角度

两个人的时候,有两个人的幸福一个人的时候,可以享受一个人的快乐


习惯了一个人吃饭
习惯了一个人看书
习惯了一个人工作
习惯了一个人散步
习惯了一个人回家
习惯了一个人发呆
习惯了一个人喝咖啡
习惯了一个人.......


我觉得我已经慢慢习惯了一个人的生活。偶尔也会感到寂寞,很渴望有人疼和爱护。但是有时候一个人的生活也蛮开心的,自由自在,无区无速。很矛盾,是吗?

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

dilemma 傷腦筋


Valentine's Day is around the corner. the season of love is here once again.

which do u think is worse - having no dates on VDay or having too many choices & dunno how to decide? u tell me...
anyhow, wishing all

Sunday, January 28, 2007

coke d remedy

i still think d best remedy for my coughing is drinking coke. my cough got better after i hv a bottle or two (those 500ml type). works better than cough syrup given by d clinic, which made me so drowsy after & no hangover effect.

& one advice - try not to take chicken when having cough. & have ample rest.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

very sick :(

last nite was a long nite. after lunch y'day, i began to feel sick - just felt so bloated & unwell. i couldnt finish my lunch, actually i had to force myself to eat as i had totally no appetite.

when i got home, all i felt was i wanted to sleep. felt so tired. it was terrible, d whole body is so weak & painful. i even vomitted twice.

still decided to come in to work today. my colleague told i look terrible, very pale. if my condition doesnt improve, i may take MC & go home.

Monday, January 22, 2007

coarse audio output

i think that's how i sound now. i recovered bits & parts of my voice - but still i dun sound like myself as yet.

still coughing on & off - causing sleepless nites or breaks in sleep. i cant sleep well & had to take time off work y'day. 2day, i m more rested & better... wish me speedy recovery, will u? thanks.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

sick

wasnt feeling well y'day morning. when i came in - my office PC oso got sick. cant start d PC @ all. it kept on rebooting.


luckily, d IT guy managed to solve d problem after lunch & i finally get to use my PC again at ard 4.30pm!

i think i need lots of sleep. it's great that tomorrow is public hol - so tht means no work for me. after work today, am driving up to Bkt Tinggi for a short retreat. hopefully d weather is good, as it has been raining the past few evenings here in KL.


wishing everyone a great weekend ahead!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

dance - love - sing - live

yes, this is how life should be...

Monday, January 15, 2007

it hurts so bad...



...i thot i m never gonna recover - but i will, i must.

for my own sake. i will. time will be my healer.

ch3ryl, move on.




你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

Thursday, January 11, 2007

encouragement for myself




Monday, January 8, 2007

愛一個人的距離


看完了這篇文章﹐心裡不由自覺的涌起一股感觸。。。such a sad piece of writing.

有時候,人與人之間,把距離拉遠一點,就會思念。你們只能默默地各自在河的兩岸走著走著,各懷心事,感情就像一根線從河的上游延綿到河的下游,遠而不斷,就這樣一直流著、流著,只是誰也過不了河。風輕輕地吹,像夢一樣溫柔,但在心底最深處,你確切明白,這條河你是怎樣也過不了的。你心裡知道當大河匯入大海的那天,只會剩下你孤單一個人站在海邊,面對無邊的蒼涼,海上一片空濛。

只是更有些時候,距離拉近了,兩個人的心倒反而遠了,就好像有一條大河在兩個人的中間滾滾地奔流著,明明彼此都看見對方,看見在彼此的眼瞳中都映著對方的影像,你眼睛裡有我,我眼睛裡有你,清澈明淨,像鏡子,像湖里的一泓倒影,但郤偏偏觸摸不到,一觸摸的話,影子就會搖晃不定,無法固定下來,再也看不到虛實所在。

就是這一條河,就是那一點點的距離,令兩個人永遠無法真正靠近,永遠無法真正擁有對方。有時候,你未必一定會看見這條河,可是你一定會感覺到它的存在,淡淡的,隱隱的。有時候,兩情相悅之時或許你會暫時忘記它的存在,樂觀的想望、暫時的逃離,只是鏡頭一轉,河道經過千重迴旋之後,越過深山,穿過叢林。不經意間郤又在某個轉彎處突然出現,流水起伏,淅淅瀝瀝 是在提醒你,也是在警告你,這條河一直存在著,潛藏在你心田深處。


也許,你也曾想過就這樣跳過去,明知是萬丈深淵,你還是想縱身一跳,義無反顧,期望在彼岸的他會及時伸手把你接住,緊緊地抓著你的手,從此海闊天空,柳暗花明,鳥語花香。
但你心底裡確切明白,這條河你是怎樣也過不了的。

離家出走

曾經想過很想逃跑。小時候﹐有一次被母親打得蠻厲害。原因是我偷偷去跟朋友去打羽毛球。如果沒記錯﹐我應該是沒有上補習班﹐跑去玩還是什麼的。被母親打後她還趕我走。那時﹐我連拖鞋也沒有穿﹐就一路跑﹐一路哭。躲在樓梯下﹐自己一個人哭。

然後。。。然後。。。我也忘記了我是如何才回家。

慢慢長大也沒有在離家出走了。。。可能偶爾也會有那種念頭﹐但是只是想想而已。

這些日子﹐也會有一股衝動要逃離。也不是為了什麼﹐只是想一個人靜宜靜靜﹐想想東西。

現在那種感覺又出現了。。。誰願意帶我遠走高飛

Thursday, January 4, 2007

resolutions, anyone?

gone were the days when i used to pen down my New Year's resolutions come mid- December.
as i was doing some spring cleaning couple of weeks ago, i came across a lot of my old stuffs - diaries, organisers, cards, letters, etc, etc - some of which i hv completely forgotten.

in one of those organisers, i found i hv actually written down a list of resolutions. if my memory does not fail me - that should be for the year 1993/94. wow! 13 years have gone by & look at me now! i hv grown - i hv changed - i no longer write new year resolutions. (not quite sure whether this is a good thing or not.)


as the 4th day of 2007 greets me, unknowingly i felt compelled to come up with some resolutions.

should it be to learn something new? should it be to earn more money? should it be to go some place i have never been before? should it be to do more charities?


think hard, ch3ryl...

hmm... i guess, simply put i just want to be a better person. but that's a wee bit too general, eh?

oh, wait! i just thought of something else...

A - to appreciate all blessings bestowed upon me & not take things for granted.
B - to be a better person, mayb not the best in your eyes, but i shall be the best i could be.
C - to have the courage to step forward & make a change - to stand up for what is right & to stand up for myself.
D - to be determined & not easily give up or stray from my goals.
E - to enjoy life in its true substance.
F - to be a friend. (in my life so many souls have touched my heart, i wish i could do the same)
i guess, that's about it. u dont expect me to write up to 'Z', do u?

A Moment for Reflections
All big man is a dreamer.
They see things in the soft haze of a spring day
or in the red fire of a long winter’s evening.
Some of us let great dreams die,
but others nourish and protect them,
nurse them through bad day
still they bring them to the sunshine and light
which comes always to those who sincerely hope
that their dreams will come true.