Tuesday, September 26, 2006

buy me a rose...

Buy Me A Rose - Kenny Rogers
He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
A three car garage, her own credit cards
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss good night
If he could only read her mind, she'd say:
Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life
Now the days have grown to years of feeling all alone
And she can't help but wonder what she's doing wrong
Cause lately she'd try anything to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said:
Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life

... that's how simple i am, too.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006


a friend once told me tears are like pearls ... so we shouldnt really waste our tears over worthless things/matters/people.
contradictory to what most people (of which, mostly men) think - women do NOT necessarily use tears as a weapon. personally to me, crying is a way of letting it all out - venting what is deep within me - relieving the heart & soul, it's like lozenge for sore throat. it helps cause i usually sleep well after a good cry. the downside is i will wake up with tired/puffy eyes the next day.
also, men who cry are NOT weak. in fact, they are the tough ones who are not afraid to express their inner inner feelings & expose the 'real' side of themselves.

people who cry are people who truly feel

只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭 为何哭

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

how's d view from d top?

it much depends on whether u r standing on a mountain, or a molehill. it all boils down to perception', i guess.


since this is my blog, my writings, ... what u get is obviously what i see from my point of view.

can everyone give me a 'hi-five!' now? yup, done all the transactions today without sending out SOS calls, (i did but only to my bankers & regional office's peers), woohoo!

all the funds are in where they are supposed to be in. & i m proud to say i have done it all, well before the cut-off time. so it's time to sit back and 'goyang kaki'. nah... i still got other work to do, like preparing for tomorrow 's tasks...not to forget, i still have an overdue report for my Director (it was due like 2 days ago, oops!).

so, have fun.


上星期六, 有一位朋友与我分享了一偏故事...

"...有一女孩,从小到大都没有得到过家庭幸福.她是一个很内向的女生,不曾喜欢参朋友. 每次有什么不快乐的事也收在心里.在公司,他很努力...也惹来很多"小人". 她依然自己忍痛.直到她嫁人后,她以为找到一个好归属...怎知道她还是不幸福. 无论她如何努力,甚至付出她的所有 - 到头来,也是一无所有. 为何上天对她那么不公平?.."


当天, 听完这偏故事... 外面下了很大很大的雨... 天也在哭吗?

Monday, September 18, 2006

pack your sleeping bag & canned food

ok, today is virtually over. yes, i know, it's barely 6 in the evening, but in terms of Malaysian market dealings & banking transactions are concerned - the day IS over. so far, things are under controlled. i have done, not single-handedly, but i m proud to announce i did it with minimal interference & help. *thumbs up* for myself.

yeah, yeah, yeah... it may just be a small step for mankind, but it's a GIANT leap for ch3ryl. oh, well...

tomorrow is D-Day. today is basically paper work, documentation, paper work & documentation... tomorrow is the crunch time to confirm that all documentations, all white-paper-black-writings, all forms of communication - facsimille, post, courier, email & even delivery by hand - are well...uhm, ... communcated. & the intended recipients are doing or had done what they are supposed to do - then, woohoo!!! i wouldnt need to send an SOS to my CFO (who's overseas).

so, i need another nite of good rest.


health -wise, i seem to be better today. my ulcer is healing, my sore throat is thisclose to 'gone'... so, here's to good health!


still missing my car. got it back briefly last week, but i sent it back to the workshop. coz the car is not working as fine as it should be, ... sigh! another week without (my own) car.


have you installed love?

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system.
It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. C an you turn those off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will override conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware.
Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you.

Tech Support: You're welcome, I'm here anytime.

--Author Unknown--

Saturday, September 16, 2006

climb d molehill, conquer d mountain

tension is building up as next week draws near.

where multi-million dollars, multi-currencies, cross countries transactions are concerned --- i m totally a toddler in d field. i can do it, i know. just that i need to stay calm. the last thing i need is to panic & freeze. hahaha!

so, my strategy is to list down the detailed tasks to be completed, & the cut-off time for each. i have got all the essential contact numbers of bankers & dealers, IT support, etc. i think i have got myself well covered. hopefully not much ad-hoc issues that arise... otherwise, i may just slip & drown... haha, nah, no worries, i can survive.

this weekend, i will try to pamper myself with loads of rest so that when i report in to work on monday, my mind is clear & fresh.

happy weekend everyone!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

down but not out

getting sick again... but i m not out yet. need to stay strong, as i will be left to fend for the whole treasury section next week. my superiors are gonna be overseas, my peer on leave... boo-hoo! there will be some major transactions going on, so i really gotta b on my toes. *cross your fingers* i need to do d job well, my CFO mentioned to me again & again 'no hiccups!'... stress, stress.

Saturday, September 9, 2006

out of action

yup, out OF action, not out IN action.

not feeling well for the last couple of days, having difficulty to sleep good.

was feverish for most of yesterday... felt slightly better @ nite, need to thank my friend who brought me to drink cucumber shake - which was good, refreshing & cooling.

woke up this morning, indecisive whether to come to work or to call in sick. at last, i still come to work. the fever seems off, just feeling a little hot & giddy.

Thursday, September 7, 2006

reviving my passion

...for photography.

i m just an amateur... mayb even less than an amateur, someone who just enjoys capturing great shots but has near-zero knowledge of low lights, apperture, focus points...etc.
whenever i come across others' photo blogs (or whatever other names u may call it) - i feel a sudden surge of inspiration & desire to do the same.
so, if you please... go drop by my photo album on this blog & tell me what you think of some of my works.
currently, my shooting partner is the Kodak DX6490. it may be outdated, non-common, low MP (just 4MP)... but i love it (especially the 10 times optical zoom), nevertheless. still, in future, i hope to be able to buy a dSLR.

used to play around with Canon EOS300, which is non-digital, but no longer can afford it! u know film & processing costs have gone up! = )

Tuesday, September 5, 2006



自知由始至終都是 拖泥帶水 
對你 我不敢表達
對他 我是無比的歉意
為何編編讓我認識你 喜歡上也蠢到不自知
知道後 亦以為何以說把你淡忘就淡忘呢
原來 我是如此一個自私的蠢女人"

遺憾的是 ~ 我們只能跟其中一個廝守到老


i wanna thank Mandy for sending this lyrics to me ... really appreciate it!



*fell in love with this song... the emotions it brought out will make me tear... sad song, great melody - what a paradox. maybe it's just me, i seem to be very easily touched, very emotional lately. i try to be strong, try to be tough... but yet, most times, i m weak, fragile.

just like a crystal - transparent & fragile - that's how someone i met 10+ years ago described me. am i still the same today? i guess so... well, at least to a certain extent. i m still the same. maybe a fraction less transparent, but just as fragile as before. the only difference is i m better able to hide my emotions, my fragility. it may not necesarily be a good change, coz there are times, when i realise i simply keep everything in me... up to the point, i'd feel so low & helpless that it kills...*

Monday, September 4, 2006


若這一束吊燈傾瀉下來 或者我 已不會存在
即使你不愛 亦不需要分開
若這一刻我竟嚴重痴呆 跟本不需要被愛
永遠在床上發夢 餘生都不會再悲哀
#人總需要勇敢生存 我還是重新許願
例如學會 承受失戀
明年今日 別要再失眠 床褥都改變 如果有幸會面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴 惶惑地等待你出現
明年今日 未見你一年 誰捨得改變 離開你六十年
但願能認得出你的子女 臨別亦聽得到你講再見