Wednesday, August 30, 2006

tomorrow, at this hour...

if everything goes well, i should be at this place...

yes... i am going to Langkawi Island tomorrow, then swinging by Penang on Saturday & coming back to KL on Sunday.

so, i will disappear from the face of my beloved KL for four days. great, i truly needed this vacation, to unwind & all before i become insane ... wish me a great vacation, will you? i will be back!!! (& oh, dont miss me too much!)

& now more pics to feed my appetite (& probably yours, too)...

'Mary Says' is an old song by Lee Hom. i had been looking for the lyrics for a long time... finally, i stumbled upon it yesterday. just thought i'd post it here...

Mary Says
How long has it been since i held you near?
How long will it be till i have you right here?
You say that hurts i cant disagree
But how can i hold on to someone who's leaving me?
And mary says she's gonna be ok
She tells me things are getting busier these days
(She tells me things will be much easier someday)
And mary says she's gonna be alright
You know how much i miss her in my life
(You know how much i'm missing her deep inside)
Goodbye yesterday i see my dreams walking away
And Mary looks just like she did before
Except she dont, she dont love me anymore
I could shake your hand or I could kiss you goodbyes
But i just might break down looking in you brown eyes
So what happens next
Do i listen to my mind or heart?
I dont know where to start feeling again...

i just like the feel of the song, the feel of both the music & words... now, i m having difficulty finding the lyrics for the Chinese version of the song (流淚的手心). can anyone help?

Monday, August 28, 2006


愛,是一種提昇,一種激勵,一種勇氣,一種力量 。


Beautiful Life

this morning, a friend shared with me this song by Ace of Base ...

You can do what you want just seize the day
What youre doing tomorrows gonna
Come your way
Dont you ever consider giving up,
You will find, oooh
Its a beautiful life, oooh
Its a beautiful life, oooh
Its a beautiful life, oooh
I just wanna be here beside you
And stay until the break of dawn
Take a walk in the park when you feel down
There's so many things there
Thats gonna lift you up
See the nature in bloom a laughing child
Such a dream, oooh
Its a beautiful life, oooh...
I just wanna be here beside you
I just wanna be here beside you
And stay until the break of dawn
You're looking for somewhere to belong
You're standing all alone
For someone to guide you on your way
Now and forever
Its a beautiful life, oooh...
I just wanna be anybody
Were living in different ways
Its a beautiful life
Im gonna take you to a place Ive never been
Before o yeah
Its a beautiful life
Im gonna take you in my arms and fly away
With you tonight
Its a beautiful life, oooh...

yes, life is beautiful... if we take a moment to stop looking at our circumstances, to stop worrying, to stop rushing ... take a moment to smell the flowers, take a moment to just live life, feel life
---> life could be beautiful.

Saturday, August 26, 2006


How much time does one have?
How often do we say we don’t have enough time?
Each of us is given the same amount of hours daily – how do we use it?
Is our ‘yesterday’ taking up too much of our ‘today’?
Is our ‘today’ spent worrying more about ‘tomorrow’?

Perhaps it’s time to change our mindset, or at least mine-
To realize the value of ONE YEAR…ask a student who failed a grade.
To realize the value of ONE MONTH…ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK…ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR…ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE…ask a person who missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND…ask a person who just avoided an accident.
To realize the value of ONE MILLISECOND…ask the person who won a silver medal in the Olympics.

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift, that’s why it’s called … the Present!

I do admit – easier said than done. Often, I find myself struggling not to think about the past or wondering about the future. But I am learning to appreciate every moment that I have, … and when I do, I will unconsciously start to count the blessings that had been bestowed on me, my life… Then I will see yesterday’s sorrows and tomorrow’s troubles slowly vanishing before me. What matters most is the ‘NOW’, for we never know when the ‘now’ will be our last.

to the angels around me

looking back at the events spun off by the accident that happened last week, i came to realise that i m truly blessed. it takes a hard time in life for us to discover who our true friends are.
it had been a week of great inconvenience and anxiety for me. going through the motions of life brought to light the 'angels' surrounding me, of whom i may have failed to acknowledge before.

an 'angel' who was kind enough to lend me her car... even though it was just for 2 days.

an 'angel' who was kind enough to help me to check the status of my car & insurance claim, liaising with the workshop... and he is even willing to come & fetch me to the workshop.

an 'angel' who was kind enough to pick me up last nite even though she was tired and not feeling well.

an 'angel' who brought me some Chinese herbal medicine to relieve me of the after-shock - that's my Mum!!!

a little 'angel' (my niece) who showed me her care by giving me a cheer-up gift - she's only 7!
and many other 'angels' who in one way or another showed their care & concern.


to all the angels in my life - thank you. i m deeply touched by your every gesture of kindness and every word of care, comfort & best wishes. you made me feel i m loved! = )

If you want happiness….
For an hour - take a nap
For a day - go fishing
For a month - take a long holiday
For a year - inherit a fortune
For many years - love someone
For a lifetime - help someone

Friday, August 25, 2006


can we start again? can we... will you?

*so hard to express what's on my mind, what's in my heart... *(had to borrow the words of these songs to express what i feel...)



然後 沒有然後
然後 沒有然後

only wish u'd understand. only wish u'd remember. remember how we used to be. have u forgotten? can we start again? can we ... will you?


Wednesday, August 23, 2006

喜歡是感情 愛是理智

不須考慮的 完全沒有壓力 沒有責任
愛字太重了 那讓人想到一生一世
喜歡一個人倒是挺自在的 隨意的 任性的
碰上了很高興 碰不上亦沒什么
順不順眼祗憑感覺 不需要分析
能擁有一段美麗的記憶。。。是一種幸福。。。每個人都希望有美好的愛情, 但不是每個人都能有幸遇到, 更不是每個人都懂得去掌握同珍惜。 遇到時要全情投入,但得到什麼,不一定成比例。 結果是怎麼樣,控制不到,但不代表不希望得到好的結果。 當得不到,會不開心, 但祇給自己一個小小的限期,不可以頹廢。。。 努力過,就不會後悔。。。因為已經擁有了最好的! 順其自然,只憑感覺,相信緣份 。。。 祇要在心裡。。。相互,互動 。。。真誠 。。。 用心卻輕輕的沒有壓力 即使天涯海角,海角天涯 。。。 在心裡就好!"

Monday, August 21, 2006

crash! boom! bang!

last saturday noon, my car was hit by a 3-tonne lorry as it was reversing. the driver didnt see me (i guess it was one of the blind spots) - & he also didnt hear my horn (mayB it's time for me to change to air-horn).

thank God i m still alive. the damage to my car is at the right side, further front from the driver's door where the tyre is. i m not sure how to gauge the impact, but the headlights were ok, side signal lights were ok, the side mirror was ok, just the side & the tyre - .... that was quite bad. since the lorry was practically huge & long, no damage was sighted on his vehicle.
i told the driver when i got down, even if i m dead inside my car, his lorry would still see no damage at all. i was just furious. i still cant really accept that it happened (even now, 2 days after the incident).

my friend commented that i should have just abandoned my car then... but that did not cross my mind at all at that time. i love my car a lot, & the feeling just sucks right now. guess, the only way to console myself is that i m unhurt...well, at least not physically.

now, my car is in the workshop, & it's highly inconvenient for me to commute to/fro work without my own car, i may just move & stay over at my mum's place for the next few days.

to my dearest family & friends ---> sorry to make u people worried - i m ok, just still feeling kinda in the dumps at the time being. now the next thing is hopefully i can get my car back real soon.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

a tough nut makes better peanut butter

what about the title? - u asked. i dont know, just saw this saying somewhere & it kinda stuck to me. seems like a profound thought... dont u think?

oh, well. am going through some rather trying challenging moments. when i was in secondary school, my principal used to tell us - when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. surely the saying is true, the concept works well, even sounds oh-so-perfect. but this is not a perfect world - neither do i think i m tough.

i get so weary, facing life's battles. there are days when i just wish i can close my eyes & blink all my troubles away. it wont work, else i wont be sitting here writing this.

does a tough nut really make better peanut butter? i hope so...

i know this is short, but life is moving fast & i aint got enough time, so can just afford a quickie.

grapes u cant eat...

are always sour?

armed with all the willpower & EQ i have - i m trying to prevent myself from metamorphing into a continuous rants-generating person. still have yet to discover the secret to living a life of contentment (of course, it's just a thin line between contentment & complacent). i dont want to become someone who constantly complain, crying injustice all the time & make my own life miserable. pathetic, aint it?

the rich will become richer, the gap seprating the economy of the rich & poor are getting wider & wider. sometimes, hard work alone is not enough to narrow down the difference, lest bridge the gap. useless. more often than not, we dont see the fruits of our labour... well, maybe not soon enough.

oh, well... what to do?

i guess the solution is i just gotta resolve not to let daily circumstances & my surrounding influence my happiness - now, i just need that extra bit of strength & willpower to realise my resolution. just stop thinking whether it's worth it, just stop thinking when i am reaping the fruits of my hard work, just stop thinking whether/when my love gets returned, just stop thinking & JUST DO IT.

hopefully, then, i will be a happier person.


Wednesday, August 2, 2006

in my daughter's eyes...

this song was playing on d radio, while i was on my way to work.

Song by Martina McBride
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero

I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes
I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

i wish this is the song that plays in the heart of every mother. most of all, this same song will play in my mother's heart, too.

from young, i have always felt my mother has very high expectations of me, too high in fact. who can forget the time i got beaten so badly until i bled, when i was in Standard 2? reason being i was placed no. 13 in class for the final exams.

my mother gave me a lot of pressure when i was in school. i can only get the top 3 places, no argument on that. so, in my primary years, i always got the top place, save for that 2 years - when i got the 13th placing and the other time when i got 4th placing (didnt get a beating that time coz i just missed d mark slightly).

when i look back, i can understand why my mother has so high standards. i m the youngest at home. my elder siblings didnt do too well in their studies, & i was the only hope left.

as i grew older, i finally pickep up the courage to talk to my mother. as i stepped into secondary school, i told begged my mother to give me a chance to do it my own way. i have proven that i m serious w my studies. & to me, the most important thing is i have given my best shot.

so, i was free.

nowadays, when my mother & i have our little conversations & catching up sessions. i'd remind her of how she strict she used to be, how she beat me when i didnt get a good placing... i guess i do make her proud ultimately. nope, i did not get place in Uni, but i do at least hold a professional degree, a stable job, i dont do drugs or anything illegal (ok, ... excluding buying pirated CDs & DVDs).

over the years, especially when i was old enough to think & understand, & especially during the year my father had to fight the battle with cancer - i could finally see how strong my mother was. yes, she has her weak moments. she has gone through a tough childhood, a tough marriage, ... yet, she did not give up.

i do cherish my mother, & i do hope i can spend more time with her, which i currently fail to. one day, someday... when i become a mother myself, i want my daughter (& son) to be just as proud to have me as a mother, just like i am proud of my own.

Tuesday, August 1, 2006

Bad Day

this song by Daniel Powter seems oh-so-appropriate right now...

Where is the moment we needed the most

You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

They tell me your blue skies fade to gray

They tell me your passion's gone away

And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee you go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces every time

And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?

The point is they laugh at what you say

And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

Sometimes the system goes on the blink

And the whole thing turns out wrong

You might not make it back and you know

That you could be well oh that strong

And I'm not wrong

of course, life always has d ups & downs. so 2day is a bad day. but tomorrow will be better! (yes, gotta keep the fighting spirit)

down not out!

mayb i shd go shopping, since the mega sales is on. yeah, retail therapy is d way 2 cure d soul, ... no worry, i shall only use cash, considering i still have loads of credit card bills to clear.